Today was nice and quiet. Maybe too quiet? I kept myself busy with house work though. We haven't heard back on our close date - that's annoying! I'm itching to know when we will get in the new house. We're talking about looking at colors and we need to get down there and take window measurements so that should keep us busy this weekend. I hope we will have our date by the end of the week.

Good things:

1. My husband brought the baby to bed when she woke up for her night feed. And, he put her back in her crib so I didn't have to get out of bed at all - even though he's the one who had to get up for work today. I really appreciated that and I told him so this evening.
2. Reading Best Friend's blog - her post made me smile.
3. A good, quiet day.
4. Willingness. Willingness to let go - even though it won't be easy to actually do it. I both have to and I am willing to.
   
5. Fried rice and kimchi. YUM.
   

Good things:

1. My best friend's voice on the line.
2. H telling me she's grateful for her baby sister.
3. Nephew N telling H to look at the sun shining on the water as we drove over Tempe Town Lake.
4. C babbling more and more.
5. Holding onto my sanity (as challenging as that is sometimes).
   

I am a bit more at peace today though I have had some preoccupation with a situation. I do have things to be thankful for, every single day. I'm grateful that I know that now.

Good things:

1. Every moment is a gift.
2. Laughing so hard my stomach hurt with friends tonight.
3. Korean food for dinner. YUM.
4. My best friend moving into her new house next week. :)
5. Turning the ringer off on my phone.
   

Today was trying. I got through it. And, I got through it much better than I have in the past when these things happened. I don't know what to do. But, I know I don't have to do anything right now.

Good things:

1. Getting ready for bed.
   
2. My mentor.
3. Having a support system and not feeling alone during trying times. Especially when you have to make hard decisions that no one can make for you.
4. Making better decisions than last time.
5. My family.
   

I feel conflicted right now. Something just happened but maybe (?!) nothing just happened at the same time. I just feel that in what is generally a normal situation, something was slightly off. There was a distinct difference from this morning to this afternoon. I realize my own fear of the perceived change is my own to deal with. And, that I don't have to let it ruin my day or consume my thoughts. That's what I am working on now. I am disturbed but I need to and want to get past it. So, in working to transcend - my 5 good things so far for today are:

1. Good memories of growing up.
2. Loving my family - my daughters and husband.
3. Writing an essay about being powerless.
4. Sometimes no reaction is a good reaction.
5. The house is done!

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My husband came home from work and I told him how I was feeling. It was nice to have him listen. It was also nice to hear about his day and the good things that happened. Here are 3 more good things:

1. A good day at work for my husband.
2. Listening to his stories and jokes.
3. Laughing together.