GRRRRRR! My good mood is so challenged. I just got an email from our financial people and it looks like our loan won't be funded till Tuesday. What does that mean? It means we don't get our keys till Tuesday! :( I knew this was a possibility but I just kept hoping it would work out. It did not and while I know it's only a few days it really is a buzz kill. Do I have control over this? NO. I get it. It's more that I am just excited to get into our house, excited to move on and have a fresh start for Husband and me. I am looking forward to this and a few days doesn't make much difference. I guess I just feel like letting it get to me for a few minutes.

I suppose I'm over it now...

There are still many good things about today. For example, I am watching Obama give a speech at the DNC. The crowd is INSANE. It would be so cool to be there. I can only imagine the chemistry in the air there.

Good things:

1. Barak Obama for President!
2. A few more days to pack.
3. Mint basil.
4. Thursday.
5. Kimchi in the fridge.
6. The Cho Show.
7. Hannah's excitement.
8. Comforting C.
9. Packing up the kitchen.
10. Wasabi Peas.
11. A thank you note from our niece.
12. My Grandmother.
    
13. Turning the cell phone off.
14. Caller ID.
    
15. Learning from watching others (both good and bad things).
16. Laughter.
17. Remembering to make time for Husband.
18. Safe driving.
19. Animated emoticons, especially dancing bananas. They are too funny.
    
20. Good conversation.

1. Listening and learning.
   
2. Being so excited to do this assignment.
3. Getting everyone's lists every night - it is so cool to end the day with not just with my gratitude, but with everyone else's also.
4. My mother and my father next to me at the meeting tonight.
5. My mother's reaction to this meeting - she seemed much happier when they left my house tonight.
6. The warm welcome when we arrived tonight.
7. Everyone's patience when I show up to these meetings with C. She is getting more and more chatty and soon will be ready for babysitting. In the meantime, I am SOOOOO grateful to be able to come with her in tow.
   
8. Someone letting C chew on her cell phone.
9. C's silly "scrunchy-nose heavy breathing" at the meeting tonight.
10. My back seems to be healing (note to self - no more flipping the baby).
    
11. Appliance shopping with Mom today. I had no idea what to look for in a washer and dryer so I am thankful she was here to help.
12. Prayer and meditation.
13. Chicken wings and ranch dressing from Red Devil.
14. Coffee in the morning.
15. Decaf coffee in the evening.
    
16. Paint colors - I can't wait to paint my house!
17. Hearing about old friends from work. Reminds me that I miss them and it's time to call and say hello.
18. Learning that I can enjoy the gifts in my life regardless of what is happening around me. I was so conflicted about that just a short time ago.
19. The end of the day - it's such a quiet, peaceful time for our family.
    
20. Cheesecake.
    

The house is ours! *Almost* We signed our papers today and are just waiting for money to change hands - the keys will be ours by Tuesday at the latest but we are really hoping to get them by Friday. Husband and I are talking about knocking out some painting this weekend and getting the blinds/ceiling fans installed - that sort of stuff - this weekend. Then, we can actually move next weekend. I HOPE, I HOPE! We've been patient but I am getting to the end of my rope. I am so excited for this house. We need the space. I need the fresh start.
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Good things:

1. My mother's help today.
   
2. Signing the papers for our house - we're *almost* home!
3. My dad stopping by for dinner.
4. Looking forward to tomorrow - time to go appliance shopping!
5. VA loan programs - we are so blessed to be able to get into this house, it's more than I could have ever imagined.
6. Recognizing how blessed I am. I feel so lucky today and I am grateful beyond words.
7. Girl time with my mom and my daughters today.
   
8. Impromptu napping this afternoon.
9. Health insurance.
10. Watching C sleep.
11. Kisses goodnight.
12. Internet and E-mail.
13. Coffee with cream.
14. Cheese.
15. Husband's smile.
16. A back rub.
17. Paying slightly less for gas today than the last time I filled up.
18. New things to read.
    
19. Good conversation.
20. Patience. I don't always have it, but things are better when I do.

Powerlessness

**I pray to be released from my compulsion to control my situation. I have so often proved I am unable to control it. Let me think, know and feel my powerlessness; then I will at least learn to let go...**
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Good things:

1. Chicken, feta and spinach quesadillas for dinner.
2. Husband gave C a bath so I wouldn't have to bend over.
   
3. We get to sign the papers for our house tomorrow!
4. Today was a good day.
5. A friend calling for prayers.
6. Praying for that friend.
7. Love.
8. Rain.
9. H's sense of responsibility - she's maturing so much and it blows me away.
10. Writing/journaling.
11. Silly pictures of C in the bath.
12. A hot pad on my lower back.
13. Our family of 4.
14. All the rest of our family.
15. Realizing on Sunday that I have more sisters.
    
16. My mentor.
17. Towels to sop up the water coming in my house right now.
18. Contractors who will eventually fix the leaks.
19. Good music.
20. Planning and saving money on groceries.
    

Yay for Sunday. Yesterday was fun. We went to the house and measured our windows. 30 freakin windows!!! The cost of blinds is going to break the bank - today I am grateful for credit, and no interest deals, lol. We'll be shopping for something like that along with a new washer/dryer and microwave. AIEEEE! Oh - I'm also grateful that my parents just replaced some of their appliances and we don't have to buy a new fridge right away. It was so fun to be at the house and think - We're home! Even if it's still not officially ours, I am just looking forward to moving in. I'll save good things for tonight when I post before bed. That's it for now.
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Today I'm grateful for:

1. Our new house.
   
2. My husband.
3. Our kids.
4. Best friends.
5. My mom came to a meeting with me.
   
6. A nice weekend.
7. The start of a new week.
8. Learning about making amends.
9. School starting for me this week! One year down and one more to go.
   
10. A new book to read.
11. A hot shower to relieve my back pain.
12. Husband's ability to make me laugh even when we're having a heated discussion.
13. Husband's ability to make me laugh period.
14. Silliness.
15. Sleeping in.
16. Learning from the past.
17. Looking forward to the future.
18. Quiet.
19. Sub sandwiches.
20. Restraint.