Monday, January 19, 2009

Honoring Inspiration

A few weeks ago something came to me, a realization about my recent self. The realization: As I take time to discover and cultivate who I am, I notice the roles that used to overwhelm me are now inspiring me.

These roles - mother, sister, wife, daughter, friend, employee, co-worker, supervisor, student – could each feel so daunting just a few years ago. I didn't even know there was inspiration in front of me and I had no idea how to approach life with creativity. I was so resentful, drowning in obligations to anything and everything in life with no time for me. Looking back, I realize that having no time for me was partially my own fault - I wasn't making any time. If I don't make myself a priority, it is no one else's job to do so either.

Now I get to look at who I am. It’s not that I’m not tired, or that I don’t get occasionally frustrated, but I have started on a journey to develop myself. As I focus on my happiness project I find I do truly love being a mother, a wife, a student, daughter, friend…

I was recently lucky enough to be able to let go of quite a few things that were a source of negative energy and in doing so it seemed I was suddenly compelled to approach the roles in front of me with creativity. My new mantra: Be ready to be inspired by what is in front of me today. When I start with myself, I can see my roles as a gifts in my life. There are new gifts in my day, every day. Inspiration is everywhere once I open myself up to receive it. All it took was setting some boundaries (easier said than done but that’s another discussion) and then focusing on being Juli and looking for what that means.

Today that means:
  • Bring order to my house.
  • Improvise.
  • Read.
  • Write.
  • Create (recently this has been a lot of crochet projects).
  • Practice gratitude.
  • Laugh with my kids.
  • Laugh with my husband.
  • Learn something new.
  • Cook new things or make our old favorites in new ways.
  • Get enough sleep.
  • Seek the goodness in life – in the people around me, in the media I consume, in the moment that I am in.

4 comments:

Lisa said...

focusing on being you and looking for what that means - ahh that is brilliant, and so inspiring.

titania said...

I am so grateful for your blog.........your thoughts are so mindful and triggering to me..by coincidence I made a link to this post and want to refer to your thougths (they are precious)
thanks for being YOU
blessings Titania

Jules said...

Kavindra and titania - I'm honored by both your comments! Thank you for taking the time to read my post. I wish you both much happiness and creativity.

Anonymous said...

This is such a beautiful post - I want to hold it to me as a reminder whenever I let myself get overwhelmed. It's lovely to think of all the roles that I play, the hats that I wear, as sources of inspiration rather than dragging me down. Making myself a priority is something that I've been holding onto, too, and it seems to be the way that works for me on this wonderful journey. Thank you for sharing this.